As I typed the letter "R" his name wasn't there again. I felt a tear run down my cheek.Few months everybody envied us,we fought a lot but I bet you,you'll never know. The relationship was close to been perfect....we had our dreams,we supported each other, prayed together,played and fought our hearts out.
I can't really say what went wrong but I know we still feel for each other...maybe little but there's something left. Nonye will always say " when I see clinton and Jane" I believe there's love so I'll wait for mine. She still didn't believe that we where through... who would have believed?
Our pictures where all over,our names where on everyone's lips........He always says "Don't let anyone be in charge of your happiness" now I know why he kept saying this I guess he knew he would leave soon. If I knew I would have ended the statement with " Your my happiness" maybe he would have stayed. Oops this story isn't about him its about how I survived...its about who helped me.
You see no one can love you the way God loves you....I knew that,I know that...so I went to him and asked for strength,just strength to move on and that strength he gave me. He gave me what I asked faster than I could end my prayer . All of a sudden I wanted to be around people that was how I meet ifeanyi. God will forever be king. Ifeanyi and I meet in a very funny way it took us one night and we started caring for each other. People call it a "Rebound" but all I could think of was how God could bring someone now.....it occurred to me that clinton was "gone forever". Daily I had a closer bond with God. Ifeanyi of cause wanted to see me everyday....I always said no matter how bad you treat me I'll still maintain that love exists.... God is love....God lives...love lives!!!
Every single day felt new I won't leave some people out of this story..."Ayo-who made me feel so beautiful with words" "wunmi who kept on reminding me of how great I am" "Wonu- who kept me on the right path" "Nonye-who always teased about him". I call them my best EST bestie "Gabby,Wonu,Bidemi and Demi" these four people have proved that life has so many other exciting things ...all you have to do is pray and wait your turn.
Finally ifeanyi who held on even when I pushed him out ...am still pushing even though I want him to hold on!Each day I got better,I paid more attention on "ME" and I learnt that before you can succeed in any relationship your relationship with God has to be perfect!
No relationship is ever a waste of time. If it didn't bring you what you want, it taught you what you don't want. I still pray for clinton... I know we'll meet again. I taught him how to pray he won't forget that.I think whatever your in,you should give your best....I gave my best. "Give people the love they don't deserve & be sure they will leave. But then,that makes you the love they regret letting go off. I hope you learnt something.
Keep your eyes clued for more of this as I take you all though the "Diary of pretty Jane"
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